TRANSPARENT MONDAY!!

There comes a time in your life where you are so content with everything in your life. You start loving yourself, being happy with being alone. You leave all toxic relationships and focus on you. Then someone comes along, and they seem to be everything you wanted. They are literally like everything you prayed for. You become hesitant because it almost seems too good to be true especially since you came from a line of bad relationships. Your gut is saying you take it slow and be careful. You do just that, and things are still perfect. So it's like hmm okay I'm going to trust this person with my heart and see where it goes. They have proven themselves to be legit so far. You even tell them that you've been hurt many times before so if they aren't ready, please let go before we become fully invested in each other and of course they reassure you that this is all real and right. Well, time goes by, and you finally let them become your boyfriend/girlfriend after months and months of talking and getting to know each other. You finally let all those walls down and love them to your fullest capability. Well, it's almost a month into your relationship, and you get messaged from someone you don't even know telling you that they've been messing your significant other since the beginning of the month. You take it all in and you're trying not to cry and get crazy because you've been down this road before and you're hoping it's not true. Well, you call your partner, of course, they lie until you send them SCREENSHOTS! You can't lie after that seriously the proof is there now. Well because you love this person you're like okay I'm going to let you explain yourself, and I'm going to give you another chance to prove yourself (dumb move, please let go when that happens). You give them another chance even though they broke your heart already ... not even a full month yet but you still love hard and give them your all because you want it to work because you see endless possibilities of the potential of them being great. Notice I said potential.... God doesn't send you potential, and he doesn't send you perfection either but you can tell the difference so please keep it moving. Well here I am talking about second chances well reconciliation happened, and things were good, and of course you fall for all the sweet talking and words of affirmation because they make you feel like they are doing the right thing and making better choices to make things work after they betrayed your trust. Well, finally holidays come around and you get a text saying "my phones been messing up and I'll call you after work baby I love you." and that's the last message you hear from them. You wait for the call after work, and it never comes. You call all weekend, and you keep calling sending messages. Then you see that they are reading them, but no responses and they block you from calling, so you're sitting there ALL WEEKEND wondering if they are okay or what the heck you did for this to happen. So you just end things because it's clear they don't want to be in your life anymore. You send some hate text messages and other things because of course you're hurting, and you're giving another person the benefit of the doubt, and they prove to you why you should have left them alone the first time. Hey, that's what happens when you have a good heart and love hard. Well because this person isn't the man I thought they were they send you a text saying ," Listen sweetheart it's not that I don't love you or that I hate you but I just realized I'm not ready for what we are stepping into right now and you're a sweet person, and anyone would be lucky to have you I mean I would be lucky to have you but I'm just not ready right now, and it wouldn't be right to you". Okay okay, I know what you guys are thinking ... man person has alot of growing to do just for simply messaging you and not calling you and explaining themselves. Well, I'm not going to accept that response only because I gave this person the option go after they messed up the first time and I decided to forgive them. They knew they weren't ready for a relationship before all of this but of course, people are greedy and want to have their cake and eat it too. I didn't ask for you to come into my life and be with me. You were persistent and said you love me but you looked me in the eyes EVERYDAY and spewed out nothing but lies. God has such favor over my heart because he prepared for this and I'm happy that I've learned self love and that this person wasn't my happiness I am my happiness. He seemed to be perfect when we first started to talk and date, but it was clear to me that he was a wolf wearing sheep's clothing. When people show you who they are the first time, please believe them. Well, I'm back to being alone, and I'm completely happy and okay with that because I love me and I know that all men aren't the same and real men do exist because I have several examples in my life of Good men! My dad is #1 he's always been consistent in my life, so I know exactly what a Good man is. I'll continue to pray for my future partner. I don't wish bad on this person, and I hope the next person he meets that he doesn't play with their hearts and that he's man enough to tell them straight up instead of stringing them along until he's ready to be done. So this is me being transparent and letting everyone know that I go through things just like everyone else and things aren't always what they seem to be. Ladies and Gentlemen, please listen to your gut and protect your heart. Before you pursue anything, please ask GOD to reveal things to you before you fully invest your heart and time. I'm glad I asked God to reveal things to me because each thing that was done in the dark I didn't have to look for it ... it was revealed to me. Please don't ever settle or lower your standards for anyone you think God so called sent to you. You'll know when God sends you someone because you won't have to change your standards and they will be leading you to Christ and not living a double life. Everyone isn't who they say they are ... you have to pay attention to the small things they do. That's my story, and I'm okay I'm disappointed but Life goes on, and I know GOD has my back, and he protected me from another false one.

Love you all !!!! Transparency is a good thing, and it's perfect for healing.

P.S to the guy who wasn't faithful to himself or me...

I pray that you learn to love yourself and that you ask God to help you become a better man in Christ. Ask him to remove those temptations of infidelity out of your life. Ask him to help you focus on his word and work on being more honest.

I wish you the best and best blessings.